Sale!!!

Sale!!!

(yeah... go yak!)

Parent Adult Child .....

Got this shot at a Pattaya show of Han with one of the ladies. Gota pay for taking the shot for her and Han, ok?

The lady happened to be a man actually, who really looks better being a lady.

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Anyway, I remember that someone once shared that there is a "family" inside each of us: possibly 2 adults and a child.

The man of Action, the Intuitive lady and the Dreamer child. Sometimes, the man tends to be impulsive and careless, while the lady tends to be guided by her heart and by her impulses - all those subtle signals streaming onto her internal radars. To her, our body gestures and nounces speak louder than actual words being used for explaining a concept. The child is totally helpless with regards to self-control. Interesting sounds, colours and movement will tend to attract its attention, tho for a short while only, most of the time. But this external stimuli are enough to trigger involuntary movements from the limbs and body of the child. I don't know if I am right.... but I suppose this should correspond with TA which refers to PAC during any encounter, whatever the age or mental frame of either party.

March 2007

Taken in Bangkok, Thailand - The Land of a Thousand Smiles.

People learnt to devote their lives towards selflessness and the virtues of Buddhism from a very young age.

That's one corner in a temple (forgot the name).

Home is where the heart is ...

Life has been good, yeah?

Sometimes I feel that in each of us, there is this place that we tend to visualise or dream of.

This painting depicts the place where I have always been longing to be. Anyway..

Gurus persuade changes and set the scenes for the way we manage things and affairs in my country. I have come to adapt myself to this place where I live and perhaps I have learnt the set of corporate world behaviours in order to bring bread and butter to my home. I listen, and bow my head. Or I could raise my voice or use my tone of voice or even wave a pen ... Oh boy, have I changed so much? Where was the carefree boy I used to be? The one who once raced down the long corridor with little boy on wheelchairs?

I used to be rather "naughty" and non-conformist. I had a fiery zeal in my heart. I would fight and willingly champion a cause I felt so strongly for. Looking back, I could have offended many of those seniors who are still around today. I could lead and organise and train. I could fall madly in love with a subject and go without food and sleep 36 hours straight just to get it right. I would go far into another country just to search for the things I treasure. I would lie down on the ground and wait for that animal to be in the right place for a snapshot. That used to be me. But I have already learnt to fear and worry. I have learnt to delegate and trust, but I have learnt to worry. A LOT. Alas, I am already very very tired person now. My health is failing and so is my courage and zeal. My sleeps have begun with prayers on my bed as I lied down and asked God numerous times where else I could have been ...

So many years have passed and I had seen so many of my own "heroes" gone before me. I sincerely wished them all the best in wherever they go. They are probably much happier now, while we are still nurturing the next generation. I think the future "heroes" seem to be grown on much better milk and honey, and trained from nintendoes and counterstrike.

Maybe it is the Autumn of my life now, altho many would say it's still a bit too early for me. I have become pessimistic and to some, "negative". I looked at the friends whom I had to let go. And also the ones whom I have to keep till their paths have plateaued. All because of what I have to embrace as my own corporate religion. It is all but a learnt way to keep close to the cheese. But see how these cheeses get dangled and dragged around the corporate world, trailed by a string of mice. Besides, how many would we want to keep? I should find my own. I should depend on God, to place bread and butter. Not processed cheese that we have been conditioned to do acrobats for.

Ultimately, it is God in person, and not tablets and synagogues. I do not believe in clergymen anymore, as much as I would trust businessmen. Unless he comes in the name of God and as a man after God's heart. For me and my household, we shall love the Lord.

What A World It Would Be

Everytime I see a smiling face
I wish it'd rub off and set a pace
To chase the world around
That hate could not be found
And left no trace
Everything in Harmony
What a world it would be.

I wish the entire human race
Each day would feel a tender warm embrace
Have shoes up on their feet
And have enough to eat
Live happily
If only man and woman were free
What a world it would be.

If everybody had a mutual goal
and one perfect destiny
If everyman had peace within his soul
The way it was meant to be
If only we could find the key
What a world it would be.

I know that in my heart
I feel as if a part of me
Can see ....
A world in perfect harmony
What a world it would be
A beautiful for you and for me
What a world it would be

Love is ...

Love is patient, love is kind.
It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.
It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.
Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.
It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
Love never fails.

Saturday

Saturday used to be fun... but today seems to be a series of unfortunate (or fortunate) events. Sent X9 for servicing... the elderly technician got the visor fixed the wrong way and I had to help. Then, when I found 2 nuts missing... the young boss came out to try to fix it with another 2 alternative models! While releasing the caps, found that one side of the frame for the visor was also LOOSE. Which means, the nuts weren't even tightened. I swallowed it.. for the sake of our friendship and I also felt something amissed today, with the young boss' dad and also the elderly technician. The former nearly felt like fainting once and grabbed my arm and the latter seemed to be forgetful.

I went to Sim Lim in search of something to fix my lights. Then I went home. On my way home, I heard something metallic hit the road just beneath me but could not tell what it was. Then, upon reaching Bayshore Road, the engine felt funny and I saw that the oil signal was lighted up. then I slowly drifted to the side just before the approach to Bayshore road. There was a burning smell and it just "died" on the spot the moment I applied the brakes. For one thing, the engine could have died while I was right in the middle of the heavy traffic jam near Suntec City! That's probably the "fortunate" part.

I tried umpteen times to get the workshop guys but on saturday evening????? Anyway, had to call EMAS to tow it away from ECP. EMAS is another weird story. To make a long story short, in the end, I had to wait until Monday morning....

Scootering in HCM

Someone described it better.

http://www.geocities.com/asianbikers/index1.htm

2007-Annual Party

It's time to prepare for CNY again. How time flies!

Just can't imagine that Christmas is finally over. The good times and memories are slowly fading away and as the dusts settled, the memories are getting fuzzier and fuzzier... or is it a sign of senility? I could sense a growing fear within me that I am getting old.


I read somewhere that Asians tend to be more pessismistic about being old than the Western counterparts. To the latter, retirement could be just something that they look forward to. But not so with Asians. Is it because of the rising medical costs and living expenses? Sometimes, just when you need more strength to have 3 meals a day, being aged and half-crippled doesn't help.


Anyway, it's our Annual Party again. This year, a few of my colleagues came up with an exciting performance. I am glad that their efforts paid off. Like what Phillip had said to me before, it isn't how others view the performance, but rather, what the performers have learnt after having rubbed shoulders through it all. There had been tears and silent disappointments. But at the end of it all, I am really glad the group made it through and (hopefully) have emerged being better friends. I think that was the trophy.


Sadly, this dance item was also supposed to be the last one for one of our radiographers. Next month, he will be joining his wife and kid in UK where there are better opportunities for them. For the last 4 years, and while he had been working among all of us, this funny aspect of him had never really surfaced in public (except to those who know him well).





Well, it's time to move on.
Bon Voyage, Dani. All the best and take care, always.

Christmas Eve 2006

At last, the year is coming to a close soon. This year's Christmas seemed to be better celebrated than the last. In HCM also, this Christmas was quite unusual. Maybe it's because this year's seemed to be better organised while also, more people were prepared to stay out later on the Eve of Christmas. The entire street was lighted up and closed to traffic. We just had to leave our bikes at the hotel near Benh Thanh Market and then walk all the way to Du Bach Church. Actually, it was quite easy. All we had to do was to follow the throng and walked down the main street. Reminds me of the exodus from Egypt. Along the way, people would stop momentarily to poke fun at one another, take a couple of snapshots or throw "sprinkles" (not sure what you would call them but they were little tiny pieces of coloured papers. Selling like hotcakes along the streets). Hanh was so brave that she actually "ambushed" a senior police officer on duty! He had just taken off his helmet and Hanh just walked up from behind him and his bike, dropped a handful over his head and disappeared in the crowd. I am not sure how the general reaction was like but boy, was he mad! He turned around to see who did it. His younger colleagues laughed and he calmed down. According to Yen, he was telling the rest that he was afraid of the itch during the rest of his shift.

Along the way, people (even perfect strangers) would "sabo" one another. There was this poor couple on this bike. The bf tried to ride through the crowd and he pressed his horn. BIG mistake. It was like shaking the hornets' nest. Suddenly, everyone just downloaded the whole load of sprinkles from their hands onto them! Worse yet, as we walked abit further down the path, we found out where they got these sprinkles from. Yea, they recycled! So we realised it wasn't just papers that they were throwing at one another!

Foreigners were not spared. Only those who sat inside the resturants and cafes were lucky. Saw an American lady turned around, grabbed some from the floor and threw back at somebody else. Everyone was laughing. Anyway, life went on. The merriment went on till pretty late into the night. We saw the old and the young along the streets; beggars and peddlars, and friends and strangers. People greeted one another, "Merry Christmas". For us, it's been a while since we last met. Tai finally found his beloved Princess who lives in Dalat. Tai has a double-degree (in Business Management and Accountancy). His girl will be embarking on medicine soon too. Tai's brother is also a doctor but for some reason, he did not make it into medicine. I feel very happy for them because I think the future in VN belongs to them. People with aspirations and healthy zest for life and they found each other.

Caught a few shots of Tai trying to carry Ngoc, who is like a younger sister to him, down the street. Unfortunately, because I wasn't prepared for the impromptu takes, most of the pictures were blurred. (Bad elements for photography actually:- close range, dimly-lit street, and SPORTS mode. Or the D50 wasn't well-designed for quick settings like the Canon?) Tried rear-synch but my panning was bad. Anyway ... will memorise the buttons later.

People touched by an angel

Went Funan again just now llss and scout for desktop pc. My sis did not make it apparently and so went around on my own. Met these 2 nice guys who were doing partime at one of the shops/displays for a well-known brands. What saddened me a little was how the conversation started - "sir, buying something for your children?" Waliao, I look so old meh???? Cannot buy for myself ah? Anyway, I was good and asked them what I needed to know about that pc on display. Then (can't rem how it started) I showed them what I had been offered just minutes before by another guy upstairs and his friend came over and volunteered to help me build my list for "the same price but 3.5 times BETTER" its config! Come on, for $1500, I think I will be willing to rob a bank to get it if he could give me the list! Anyway, he did!! I GOT THE PRESCRIPTION!! His (their) prices were based on their current market researches in Sim Lim Sq, ok? We exchange some notes and contact nos. Very nice guys!

Came home and smsed them to thank them again for the advices and THE LIST. Thankfully, they were very honest and helpful. They also decided to accompany me get the parts this weekend!! God sent me angels.. do you believe? Sometimes, I believe there are people who were "touched" by an angel. Anyway, will have a wonderful night's sleep tonight. Yes, I am happy. Do you believe in angels?

(The inside view of a modern X-ray room)







This is one of the rooms in which we operate day in and day out. Very spacious and nice to work in . Can accomodate a trolley and additional staff to scramble around.

Came back from Malacca yesterday. It was a long journey but the money was well worth it. It was organised like the bootcamps I had attended with the BCYF-ians. Only that we did not have the guitar and the sunsets....

(A panoramic view from the WaterCity Resort's balcony.)

How I wish I wished I were young again. I promise I will cherish every moment with those friends again. Wonder how they are doing now.

Anyway, life must move on.

Malacca and thereafter

We are going to have a retreat up in Malaca soon.
Which shall I bring? Sony or Nikon? Don't think there will be much to take tho... or whether there will be time to do so.

A Prayer

"Ease the pounding of my heart by the quieting of my mind. Steady my hurried pace with a vision of the eternal reach of time. Give me, amidst the confusion of my day, the calmness of the everlasting hills.
Break the tension of my nerves and muscles with the soothing music of the singing streams that live in my memory. Help me to know the magical restorative power of sleep. Teach me the art of taking minute vacations ... of slowing down to look at a flower, to chat with a friend, to pat a dog, to read a few lines from a good book.

Remind me each day of the fable of the hare and the tortoise, that I may know that the race is not always to the swift ... that there is more to life than increasing its speed. Let me look upward into the branches of the towering trees, and know that they grow tall because they grow slowly and well.

Lord, inspire me to send my roots deep into the soil of life's enriching values, that I may be at peace. Amen."

(can't remember author, sorry!)

Yawar Inka's

"Yawa Inka's". Musicians from Peru.

Very nice music. Sounds very lively and upbeat.Many folks were there and glued. Some of the children danced too.
Maybe they could organise Salsa sessions there too and let it be free-for-all. Pple can just go there, and just dance and party. Make that place happening MAN!

BTW, that lady is not chinese. I like the guy in the middle. He could play a few instruments, other than sing.

Time really flies so fast and it's Saturday again. But I had really spent the day rather well. Spent quite a bit also, I guess. I had bought something on impulse. Like a radiographic positioning textbook by Delmar (1998 ed) and also a Panasonic mini-theatre system. It was such a steal. On special offer (from UP $499 to $329). And the guy was so nice he gave me a further discount to $299 and I paid $30 more for 3 yrs extended warranty, plus $20 for delivery. No GST. Maybe I will gain as long as I don't have the need for anything else like it again for the next 3 yrs.

There is a retreat for all of us this coming weekend. But inside, I feel uneasy because I still have much left to be completed before I have to leave my family for a few days. It also feels funny to be stranded in a resort with everybody else, while I am there still without a plan. What's my objective? I also dread long journeys in groups actually because I am quite the solo-traveller type. I would sit and read a book, or listen to music or sleep on the way - and risk being seen as "anti-social".

Personally, I also do not have any plans about my future but I just keep telling myself to get used to it for it's been like this for the past few years. Every yr I'd feel uncertain about where I would be the next year/rotation. Probably, after this retreat, I should be able to find out more about my future for the next 1 (or maybe 2) yrs more. Now the term "Permanence" is only relative.

But come to think of it, it isn't such a bad thing after all, because I do get to try out different places for lunch (and dinner too, probably). Also good for getting oneself a chance at ego-overhaul or the heart will get hardened. So, it is well with my soul.

There's this favourite song which we used to sing on fellowship days at BCYF:

"Where He leads, I will follow.
Where He sends me I am prepared to go.
For as long, as it's in His Will,
That's the safest place to be in, I know."

Yea, and also as long as there's still cheese on the plate, "Life is good!"

Tom Yum and Pineapple Rice

Had a rather interesting week this week, except for the complaints - verbal ones as well as written/emailed ones - that I have to entertain.

We had a 2-hr-long discussion yesterday at a rather new place that a friend brought all of us to. I will probably bring Yen and go there again if I have the chance! Tom Yum (seafood), Sambal Prawns, Pandan Leaf Chicken, and Pineapple Rice. Sedap!

Here's a story:
A rich man approached a Zen master one day. "Master, tell me please. How can I have contentment in my life?" Then the Zen master told him, "When tired, sleep. When hungry, eat. This is the way to contentment in life." Unhappy with the answer he got, the rich man retorted, "I do that everyday!"

Then the monk said, "Many people are not eating when they eat and many are not sleeping when they sleep."

The more I think about it, the more I feel I should have invested in a good lens and devoted more time in macros.

My first Macros @Sungei Buloh

Macros @ Sungei Buloh

I dedicate this post to my photography coach - PTTC.

Had been a good weekend at Sungei Buloh. There, I got a chance to try out the lenses that PT had lent to me. Insects, spiders, webs, leaves, flowers, crabs, mud-skippers... etc. I had learnt quite a lot from the trip. Actually, I had only done a few macros before. But now, it's different and I think I have convinced myself to get a pair of lens like this. It's also very different from just switching to "macro" mode whenever you want to shoot a little flower.

I feel that photo-taking can make one think more deeply about issues that one faces on and off. If only one will train to look at one thing and rethink from various perspectives or angles. It may take quite a bit of effort at first to train to become like the master craftsman, but I think it will give one more depth in the end. It's a waste having only sharp lenses but trigger-happy reflexes.

Anyway, it's been a great time with a buddy. Still had much more to learn about the art. While I was trying to focus and shoot a little grasshopper perched on a blade, he would be scouting for the next subject for me to try. Then before he lured the creature out from its hiding place, he would say, "Ok, ready? Now I want you to try this one ... "And so part of the morning went like this and I had a number of practices like this. In the end, realise I need more practices becos only 4 out of 10 were ok on the monitor.

Anyway, THANKS! Will make Yen our own 2007 calendar from some of the pictures.

Another Week Less

By today, I realise, we all have one week less to live our lives. This week, I found out that a friend has been busy helping her sister to run a business even tho she doesn't have an inkling about running a business at all. Reminds me of another who was running TWO at one time a few years ago. These are those whom I would consider to have GUTS! Probably more than those who only dare to dream. While one was by choice, the former must have been by circumstances. Her friend and I met recently and I feel that she is lucky to have friends like that. Whoever has friends who would go around looking for help for him or her should count him-/herself really fortunate.

Yesterday, I went to Ah Boy again with my friend. Got myself some "sparklers" and went to get it fixed at another of Boy's workshop at Kallang Bahru. Met Harry, an "ang moh" lecturer. He also got an X9 (18000km) for dirt cheap and so couldn't care-less by spending another K++ before he could happily call it "owned". He was looking for some mods plus some paint job. I think that should add up to 2K++ orledy liao.

The weather, I suppose, will be cooling, if not wet, over the next few weeks. The rain season is here again. There could be Tsunamis brewing too, judging from the few that have already occured over the past few weeks. Don't know Christmas will be a wet one or not.

It was pretty cool in the afternoon - there was a sudden downpour lasting only about an hour plus but it did give us a cool feel about the rest of the day. Everyone at the workshop seemed to be in such high spirits. Even the customers. Harry could speak a little mandarin, malay and Singlish. So he joked a little with us. A friendly guy and VERY handsome, maybe in his late 20s or early 30s. He must have been in town for a while by now. Dec, he will be going Cambodia till January, after which, we will probably be meeting up to exchange notes on the way he did his Evolution and the way I did mine. I would like to see how his paint job goes just in case I need to get mine done should my project fail by December.

Actually, I was just lucky to have a good friend, Jimmy. I had not realised this at first but only until Harry pointed it out to me. "Hey, you have a 14 fitted in and I just had mine on 12 only!" Then I could only smile hoping to cover up my own surprise. If another friend had opened it up and showed it to me, I would have said something like "Wow!" You see, I had asked my friend, Jimmy, to change the batt for me. Originally, it was a 12V and acid. This is a 14 and dry! I had never really felt the need to bargain with Jimmy over price because I trust him. I have also always gone back to him whenever I have problems. Even tho I think he has already taken over the business from his father, he would never do anything that would hurt his father's business, I am sure. But I have never thought that he would give me a 14V instead of the 12V. Probably his dad didn't know. Good to have good friends. BTW, his dad was dad's friend too. The sons are also.

Today is a pretty uneventful (but peaceful) Sunday. Yen had to spend the whole day (from 7.30am) with her relatives at the beach. She had called back a few times, tho. Told her the news that Julie had just bought a pair of earrings for her from India! Bet this will cheer her up the rest of the day! I stayed at home and did some housekeeping on my harddisk as well as some touching up on the web.
Rachel's cellgroup seemed to have grown in size because when I opened the door, already Rachel was sitting on the floor right infront of the doorway! Behind my doors, I couldn't really catch what was going on except when they were singing or laughing or playing games. (Just to let you know how small the world is, one of her cellgroup leader happens to be a nursing colleague of mine. Really small small world!)

Went to Tampines Mall to get some SINSIN chilli sauce and polyglaze. Saw some people buying DIY Christmas Trees. Hmm... should we? Nah...

Also got some money changed into Thai Baht for Rachel because tomorrow, she will be going there for some school project. Lydia was laughing away how a princess could help out at the animal farms when she hardly washes the plates at home. Haha...

Hope this exercise would do something good ultimately. Anyway, life is good and I am thankful.

Focus

(This is another superb masterpiece by someone else. Could have been taken with a very large aperture and/or mirror lens. Probably Phillip would know the trick.)

What I have learnt today is that two persons can look in the same direction in life but see different things that ignite their imagination. It's only a matter of focus. What have you seen today?

Painting with X-rays

Helen, wana try? It's been so long since you last painted..

Found this amazing piece also. Can't remember where I got it from but I suspect it is from the retired physician also. You can try searching under "floral radiographs".

The work on the left has been totally plagiarised. This is probably what Radiography means - Painting with X-rays. In medical radiography, the pictures captured are probably less 'aesthetic'.

Maybe using an adjustable heat-gun on a material (wood/balsa) may also do the trick?

Radiograph of a flower

Found this from a website, using low dose X-radiation. Hmm... one day I shall try.

I am not sure if it will succeed... I need to focus. Maybe Yoga might help? haha.. Then I will get it enlarged, framed up and hang on the wall.

Life can be interesting sometimes, if you look beyond the buttons to push.

I thank God for the many many things that have happened over the last few years. For a start, Earth is one of them. It is the stage on which He has planted me after making me. This is where it all began for all of us also. But none can fathom the intricate designs and social architecture work that went ahead to make everything fit in like a magic jigsaw puzzle. Like, my family, my church and my friends, brothers and sisters.

In some strange way, we have all met by some interesting "co-incidences", which I believe, are not accidental.

Anyway .... (let's move on.)

"See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? " (Mt6:28b-30 NIV)

"He leads me to walk beside still waters. Tho I may walk through the valley of the shadow of death, yet will I fear no evil. For You are with me. You are my Lord." Ps 23 (MOV)

Unfinished Journey

Taken in KL. These lamas came all the way to showcase their "mantras" (if I rem correctly).

Note that the colors being used were from colored sands which each monk carefully sprinkled onto the board.

The future destiny of the world depends on the unification of colours being used here. It looks complex and yet so simple. Such is the color of life.

I also remember the roti-boy which supposedly got famous there (according to Hwee Mun).

Q1: Samsung UltraMobile PC

For another review, try this:

http://jkontherun.blogs.com/jkotr_audio_edition/2006/05/watch_jkontheru.html

Cool UMPC : Samsung Q1

Some interesting reviews I have read ....

The Pros:

Included Data cable makes transferring data between your computer or Tablet PC and the Q1 umpc simple and easy
Fun to use
Light weight - 1.7 pounds
Full Tablet PC OS
Touch Screen
Good Sound Quality
Excellent Screen
Ethernet port
Built in Stand
Wrist Strap
Allows you the mobility to have a full functioning computer with you anytime you need it, anywhere you go

The Cons:
Even though its up gradable to 1GB, the Q1 can only be purchased in one configuration with 512MB, the Q1 performance would be greatly improved with a full Gig of memory.
Tiny pen is hard to hold and has no option to tether so its easy to lose
Tip can only be used docked
Instructions for choosing the actions for the user defined button are not in the manual
Click/double click using the auto scaler button in conjunction with the menu button - is difficult at best
No PCMCIA slot for use with Cellular EDVO cards

In Conclusion:
The Ultra Mobile PC was designed for ease of mobility and convenience and the Q1 provides that.
If you enjoy the convenience of having all of your desktop applications, email, MP3, Pen and Ink capabilities, GPS and other computer features all in a 1.7 pound package doesn't weigh you down when your out and about the Q1 is worth looking into.

On the whole, this week has finally passed by rather smoothly. I am glad it did.
I actually dread the coming retreat. I feel that retreats are supposed to be stress-free but my 6th sense keeps telling me this isn't going to happen.

Regarding the situation at work currently, I am sure that ultimately, we are all accountable for the Peace we uphold in this world, as well as all the Conflicts we participate in, or unintentionally spark off, or fuel.

There are really some things more important than power, recognition, promotion, money.... I believe that there's a difference between good friends, and true friends. That difference has made friends into bitter enemies, lovebirds into cheaters, and business partners into rivals.

So, looking back, I am still very thankful for I have my family and the friends.
Thanks for all the morale support, and counsel. Thanks so much.

My Dream Keyboard

Laser Keyboard currently available. Cool right?

Late Dinner at Tiong Bahru

Have been feeling rather stressed out and also inadequate at work lately. So I would take a long trip back home. Enjoyed the nice long rides in the night, especially when the air is cool and traffic is light.

The engine was purring away at 80. I wish I could go around Singapore some day and take pictures. There are so many scenic places in Singapore, actually. I just wonder why people would neglect to look beyond the invisible walls they erect around themselves.

I remember a particular night after work and decided to go back with a friend for dinner along the way. We found a little coffeeshop in the middle of a "dead town" somewhere near Tiong Bahru. Surprisingly good business, if you could see how quiet it was everywhere else. No one would have supposed that a shop like this would thrive in a little district like this.

Anyway, the business must have been good enough for people to travel all the way there to eat. Forgot to take a picture to show you. There'll be another chance to, I think....

World Radiography Day 2006

The Piaggio MP3

Piaggio, the Italian scooter giant which gave the world the iconic Vespa, unveiled a revolutionary three-wheeled scooter which will make it almost impossible for its rider to fall off.
The Piaggio MP3 has two wheels at the front to provide more stability for the rider, and does away with the need to kick it up on its stand when parking.
"It's an absolutely new product which we hope will excite customer interest," said Piaggio chief Roberto Colaninno, who is hoping the new model will be a big hit on the streets of Europe as well as in Asia and the United States as the price of oil soars to an all-time high.
A 250cc model goes on sale in Italy next month, at a price of around 5,000 euros. The MP3 will be exported initially only in a 125 cc version. The company's most successful product, the Vespa, turned 60 this month.

My Little Maths Tutor

My niece Beckie (Rebecca).
Caught her practising on the abacus.

She has grown much bigger since but still retains very much the japanese/korean look.
Maybe still just as 'khung' also.

Khung Khung va Ding Ding

Beckie was annoyed and refused to pose for a shot. Wasn't easy catching both their shots in one go. At one time, one would be looking here and the other would be doing something else. So this shot wasn't the one I had imagined but to me, I think it's ok lah.

Cool! Piaggio!

Another Piaggio. I like its simplistic style. Should be fun for city cruise as well as for country roads.

Ferris

It was suspected that my lens has a "back-focus" problem. Shall have to wait for the technician to recalibrate it for me - in a few days' time. No choice, but come Saturday, Nov 11 - which is the public forum day - I shall have to use the F828. Let's see how.
Maybe I should look for a bounce/diffuser on Wednesday for the flash. See how it goes.
Managed to get some shots with oil - this is what I got.

This picture was taken at East Coast. There was a light shower earlier and also probably very little crowd.
Saw this and took it by impulse, just to test the camera again.

Yesterday was World Radiography Day 2006 and it is the first to be celebrated in Singapore. This marked the beginning of a new era for Singaporean radiographers, I suppose.
I had volunteered to be photographer for the day's event at the carnival at Bishan Park 1. From 8am to 1pm.

There was also another event for my department to celebrate the occasion. Our HOD and Manager would also like to use the opportunity to share with everyone regarding the future plans for the department. You see, 2 years ago, we had a department-wide staff survey to assess how everyone felt about the department and the work they were doing, etc. We then had a retreat to plan and work on what we would like to see over the next few years from then. I was excited not because of all the things they have planned ahead for us, since I already knew more or less, the heart and soul of the organisation and its intentions, but because I understand the amount of painstaking planning and reorganising that everyone at the top has already been putting in to try to make the dreams come true. I am anxious how the folks will receive the news and what's cooking. But to be frank, after having witnessed how kindness have been "appreciated" by self-centred ingrates, wonder whether it is all worth it. Anyway, life goes on. There are 99 more to care about.

For the occasion, I had gotten myself a pair of telephoto lens too, which I bought at secondhand: Sigma 18-200mm. 3.5-6.3. The seller was an old gentleman Phillip had introduced to me. So, I took about 300 shots covering both the events, except for the part when the walk&jog was flagged off. I was too busy capturing the scenes at the carnival then. Hope at least 1 of the 2 other photographers would be there to catch the momentos. Unfortunately, there was hardly any coordination regarding phototaking.

Could not wait to check out the pictures which I had taken. Both sad (and shocked) a number of the shots were bad. Vignetting was terrible, especially at the near end. Group shots made it more evident. Should have tried stopping down and correct for the lens. Or was it the lens?? Shall have to send the lens back to the seller and check it out. But first, need to print out some samples to show him. By tonight. Hopefully its my technique and not the lens. Otherwise, wasted, Man!

Spent the whole afternoon salvaging some of the pictures. Cham!

Sis, if you are reading this, pls don't tell mother I had bought the lens hor. Costed me a bomb actually but I had thought I could bring it with me when I next go vacation. Also an investment in a potential sideline too. Will show you and Yen some nice pics if I have captured anything nice enough with this.

Better get back to work.

The Way

There was once a novice monk who went up a mountain seeking a Zen master's tutelage.
When he found the master at last, seated under the bodhi tree, he gave a deep bow and pleaded with the master to keep him as his disciple.

One day, halfway through his meditation, he asked his master.
"Master, I have learnt this art of meditation since I was a child when my parents left me to the abbot's care. Why do I have to sit here beside you all day long and you have not taught me anything more eversince the first day I arrived? Didn't you promise to help me get to the Way?"

The Master got up from his spot under the shade of the tree. "Here, you may seat yourself under this tree."

The monks exchanged places and the disciple was momentarily satisfied with his Master's favourite seat.
He remained seated for some time more. But still, the days grew longer and longer, and soon, the little monk's growing impatience got the better of him.

Being unable to focus, he asked his teacher, " Master, may I know how long more will it take for me to be where you are?"

"Maybe soon. Maybe tomorrow." "Master, what if I worked extra hard and meditate here day and night?"
"1 year. Maybe more."

"What if I swear never to leave this spot and even half the time for my meals and sleep?"

"10 or more."

The little monk grew perplexed. "Master, why is it that when I said I would work even harder, you would say it would take a longer time to master?"

"That is because when you strain one of your eyes to look at your future, you have only one left to find your way."

(The answer lies not in the spot where one is seated. Nor does it lie in the length of time that one spends at a given activity. Truth is like a friendship that blossoms along the way.)

A Prayer by Jim Elliot - (for my sis, Helen. I found this while moving out.)

I set my love upon thee, child
I knew thee far away
I wept to see thee wandering, wild
I yearned 'til thou didst pray
One of the hateful rebel band
Strong in thy lust for sin
A furtive, fitful, fiery soul
I loved; I called thee in
Stripped thee of thy grimy pride
Laid bare thy secret want
Poor vagabond of empty ways
I sent my Spirit to haunt
Now, desert son, the choice is thine
My love thou canst forget
And go to roaming wasteland paths
Wilt, willful, wander yet?

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Dear Master, in whose life I see
All that I would, but fail to be
Let thy clear light forever shine
To shame and guide this life of mine

Though what I dream and what I do
In my weak days are always two
Keep me, oppressed with things undone
O Thou, whose deeds and dreams were one

- John Hunter -

Zen (quoted, or as something that goes like this ... )

Sow a thought, reap a behaviour.
Sow a behaviour, reap a habit.
Sow a habit, reap a character.
Sow a character, reap a destiny.

We had a little BBQ party just now. Rushed to collect the Satay I ordered - 150 sticks! Shiok!
The shop is somewhere in Katong, and from there, went all the way to find the PIE.
From the PIE all the way to Jurong. Sounded easy. The last time I went that road to Bukit Batok East was a few years back when I habitually fetched Rebbie home. West Mall! This time, I went all the way to Jurong and nearly hit TUAS if I had not asked two fellow travellers.

The condo was just next to West Mall. The one I had wished I could live in one day. It has a large swimming pool and so many BBQ pits!! Overall, very well designed. Just that I did not have a peep inside the building but the exteriors was already great!

Anyway, I was glad the turn out turned out to be great! Cecilia and Jean said they were very happy that so many friends and well-wishers had turned up. Felt a little sad to see them go tho. They had been working with us for the last 4 years but alas, its the end of their 4 year-term. We could only wish them all the best and hope that they really will find a greater prospect, maybe in Canada or UK (just like Shirley) and build their lives there. So, after this month, I believe some friends are going to be permanently separated by a great distance in-between.

We used to have a HCA, Shirley and another, Nancy. They had brought us so much laughters in our department. Busy, but not boring. Of course, I also remember the times when there were tears and heartaches. I have also felt their anger and frustrations with who and who. But these were so easily forgotten, especially during our year end celebrations.
Yea, life goes on. And we should find opportunities to celebrate.

Tuesday
Woke up very late today. CK went Peninsula Plaza and apparently forgot that he had to fetch Beckie to her tuition class today at 1.30pm. So I brought her there instead. It was my first time fetching her and was also concerned she might be scared. But it ended ok. She was braver than I thought. Came home to watch cable for a while more before CK arrived and we went RC plane. Despite the hazy sky and the wind, it was rather ok for plane. Surprising to see so many enthusiasts today. I think Tampines is going to be another hotspot for plane lovers soon.

CK got his inspiration I guess, from a Jimmy and Wong (with a little kid apprentice) who were there flying their own DIY planes. $600-$1k for the whole kit. Cool! These were huge planes, probably plywood or balsa. Not sure, but felt a little heavy. The diesel engine was surprisingly not as noisy as I had thought. I was a little tempted becos of the DIY possibilities. But HaiYen would probably kill me. I asked about heli and Wong quickly brought out a T-Rex from the boot of his car and did a solid demo for me. He could really fly his T-Rex in all ways except invert. Would be a fantastic way to spend my weekends with Yen in future, and also provided I have loads of cash to spare to the point where she wouldn't mind, hehe. Thankfully, CK has got very good sponsors! He flew (and lost) his last few planes for free! Reminded me of another kind of rc: KITES with neon lights. (Check out this website: www.goflykite.com . ) They normally demo in the evenings and the kites look like a lot of giant fireflies flitting through the dark skies in various formations. Cool!!

Anyway, for now, I've decided RC is not for me although I would still love to go build one for myself someday. Got bitten by this bug when I met 1 korean penpal who introduced me to it. His was a VERY big remote controlled plane! Probably a kid could sit inside. Korea is also a very beutiful place to play these planes. At least not yet. Because in my heart there's Yen. I wish she were here and we could always spend those weekends leisurely away at these spots and feel the breeze.

Came home and rested while waiting for Yen to return from her youth group outing. Mum has to go Katong again to look after the princesses. I just have to sit infront of the comp and watch cable again. Time really flies. DeepaRaya is soon going to be over. Wonder how life is like in Indonesia now for those who are homeless. And also South Thailand. Pray for peace ... especially for the children for whom these troubles have been created by the adults.

See If You Won't Laugh

思娘

Spent a whole weekend wasted as far as homework is concerned.
Moved out from my room into the other room.
Went with Tony to somewhere in Orchard to collect a 29" Sony Wega from a friend for mum's room.
Nice friend. Surprisingly it works and so it saves us a bomb having to get a new TV set!
So, that's how I spent my Sunday - shifting things around, and helping my cousin dismantle SY's old PC.
After having successfully removed the LCD from the rest, we decided we do not need it. So, back it goes into the box.

Anyway, I suddenly realised just how much of a backlog I have up till tonight. Will probably have to stay up again tonight. Should have done part of it this afternoon instead of helping Tony dissect the PC.

真人快打旋風 波動拳 升龍拳

16Oct2006

Have been feeling rather down lately also. I think it probably has nothing to do with work but rather, with things going about at work and also how things have been turning out for some of my friends.

I have a friend whom I have always treated like a brother. He is about to submit his resignation letter. Perhaps it is for the better for himself and his family he has to feed. Reminds me of another younger (but much taller) brother. He too has a family to take care of and the pay that my department is currently offering can never match. I think, if it is the packet of pay which will make one smiles brighter at the end of the month, why not? I would have considered myself dumb if I would not secure a neat piece of cheese and put it on the dinner table for my family.

There's been these talks about pay lately and we have been tasked to find out how we could improve our basic pay structure to help our colleagues feel better and help them consider staying on in the department. Yet, at the other corner, there have been people asking how much they should be asking for if they wish to join another organisation. Unfortunately, I must admit I am not a good soothsayer. Neither am I good at guestimates. I can read character though, but it is not something that will get anyone being stereotyped. But somehow, I could sense where one stands along that Mercenary-Missionary spectrum where it concerns Pay and job satisfaction. It just helps me to guess, with a fair bit of accuracy, about a person's tendencies during decision-making process. Perhaps that is often how I got my repeated customers to tell them about their future.

But the future has only 2.
Generaly, everyone should be optimistic and all should do any good job well. If they keep at doing it with all their hearts, I know they will get somewhere. Provided they own up to their mistakes and shortcomings and learn to overcome their personal barriers and hindrances which rob them of their final achievements. Don't have to read the 8 Habits.

The other future is more realistic: This world will definitely end soon, whether it means one's internal world, or the world at large. Someday at last, we will have to place our feet down and slowly drag the carousel of time to a halt. Then we will get out of this circle of life. We have been through childhood, adolescence, teens, puppy-loves and infactuations. We have finally found the one we will commit our lives to - for better or for worse, for rich or for poor. We also have seen many of our friends being given in marriage or attended their housewarming parties. But soon, the number of days to come will begin to catch up with the number of friends we are left with. That's the reality.

If we have been cruel and loveless, the amount of vegan meals we eat later on probably aint going to be enough to provide good karma. See, our dentition may be a problem by the time we try to catch up. I don't know.

I stand at the crossroads everyday and there are countless decisions to be made. I personally believe that whichever path one chooses, it does not necessarily depend on the reward that one will receive at the end of that path. But rather, it should be the good that one has given to those he meets along the path that he has chosen. It also does not really matter anyway, whereever one goes, or whichever company one joins ultimately, etc etc. Whatever the decision that was made, and whereever you have chosen to plant your feet, grow. Do good. That's what this chance to prod on earth is all about. We are humans endowed with conscience, and afinity towards fellow kind, to prevent harming ourselves and others that we share this place with.

I wish that when I turn 62, I will have still more friends who will walk the rest of the way with me. Not that I crave attention nor love to be surrounded by people, I just feel that it is important we will ultimately live life to the fullest and by conscience, done our best. Run the good race, fight the good fight.

Another week has passed. I remember I was trying to file up all the paperwork and also did some transferring of files and now, it is another week gone.

Tony came to help fix some wiring today so that I can watch SCV from the other room instead. Got a few projects piling up for him to complete by next Sunday. This week I will have to go look around for something to replace my little TV.

Lydia has suddenly been bitten by the condo-HDB bug. Barely 2 years and she now wishes to live there. I persuaded her to rent her house, and with that income she could support her course fees. In the meantime, she could move in and live with us. She could help take care of mum also, considering her age.

At work, life has been ok except for 2 bad news. 1 is that we are probably about to lose 2 radiographers if they fail their tests held by HSA. Results are out recently. I need to know the outcome by this week. It is for their good also that everything is known early. Don't quite understand all those tunes about "professionalism".

My cheese has moved and so must my family and I. Whether that test paper deems me as one or not, I am still a professional. Read once where it said that Professionalism is a set of regulations one group of people sets up to exclude another. They established 'standards' so that those who passed that criteria will be accepted. But so far in my career, I have come across many who have passed, or were exempted from taking that test, were conducting themselves worse than those who failed that paper.

Baywatch 2006

This week has been rather routine. Except for 2 bowls of porridge with an old buddy.
Shall go again for sure. Reminds of the time I was small.
My family was poor when I was smaller. My mum was a hospital "amah" and she had to leave for work everyday while I went to school. That began when I had just started Primary education in Charlton School.

I remember that in the afternoons, after school, I would always have my lunches from a thermos-flask. It was nice to have porridge with "acha" or salted peanuts, or black olives. When we moved to Sim's Avenue and I started my secondary school education, then I could have instant noodles, fried eggs and roti prata. My dad had introduced me to Nasi Bryani and deep fried fish too.

I missed those days when I would cycle to school, especially in the rain. Fun! It's a different feeling, as I travel back from work everyday.

Can you remember what your childhood was like before you first got your car? How was your secondary school like? Or College? Did you have a buddy when you were young?

I had a few actually. But there is one since my childhood. We studied at Sennett Estate School together. Then when she went to Cedar, I went to Victoria. We both joined the bands. Somehow we would still be in touch with each other. When she got married, I was still a bumming layliolafer. She went into Financial Planning (Prudential) and now she is already planning for retirement with her hubby and children. How nice it would be to be able to retire so young! She has a different concept about life.

For me, I don't know if I can retire young. Or I suppose I will probably have to "re-tyre" instead. It's been such a long time eversince I had a nice bowl of porridge. I think it was really good therapy just to recall those porridge days.

It is better to serve than to be served.

I heard of someone who had completed his MBA after returning from overseas studies. He got this great job in one of our top companies in Singapore. I understood that he had also been earmarked to be the head of the organisation that he had been tasked to set up. The plans did not materialised unfortunatle due to a series of unfortunate events in the region. He was retrenched. This is very common story it seems.

In the end, the security guards and only 1 clerk got to keep their jobs. I suppose, no matter how bad the times have become, the directors would still be sipping their teas and going around in their shining Lexus. The friend lost not only his dream job, but also all the preparatory work he had put in for his projects. I have heard of supposedly bankrupt directors who continued to party their nights away or going around in their BMWs.

This is a picture of how thin the ice can get for anyone who just wishes to venture into foreign terrain and hopes to reap all those "everything-provided-for" kind of perks from the prospective organisation. One safe bet is to look at the track records and whether the company has any plans for retention at all, just in case they are only paying lip-service.

In the meantime while you wait for that golden opportunity to get that dream job of yours, the Morale of the story:- Learn to do one thing VERY VERY WELL. But I can assure you, it is NOT paperwork.

It was my department's Family Day today at the beach. Fun day; hilarious at times. Except that the evening ended up somewhat with a little bit of disappointment because my section did not clinge the first prize and on top of losing that Challenge Trophy (which had decorated our wall this year), we will not be getting our $200 cash reward too.

Looking back now, I think it is ok because, deep in our hearts, we know we have already put in our hearts and spirits. Winning the trophy has just been a way to help us stay focus on a single goal so that we could get together and work on it single-mindedly. Now that all the intense energy on that focus has just dissipitated together with the trophy, I realise the trophy was just something like an emblem, which never was. Last year, we won by a hair, because we had only few players but some good fortune. This year, some of those good players who played for our side last year, are playing for the others. Next year, it is highly that will change too. Or I may end up having to play for some other teams or cheer for them. So I guess, it is all a self-deluding game. In the end, there will only be two types of people who will win:- The punters or organisers (depending on whether there is illegal betting going on secretly among them) and those playing just for fun and having a good time with fellow team-mates.

I think I finally got the picture:- Enjoying our team isn't about getting one trophy. The trophy may actually break up the team. The real test is whether we will always be able to come back and celebrate the misses just as well as the scores - if any.

It isn't about winning this year's game, or next. It isn't about Man U or Korea winning, or about being part of the winning team. These work great for people placing bets and making tons of money. I feel that the greatest thing in being part of the team and playing games together (without a care who, or how big the challenger is), is this: that for a time, we really have fun together and kick butts.

I think what's most important to me now is that we will always be a fun-loving and close-knitted community. Non-Exclusive and all-inclusive. After we have been "living together" for the last 3 years, I pray that we will go beyond punctuality issues, beyond gossips and backscratchers. While some of the mistakes we commonly do may not still not be acceptable, but I believe the long-term friendships should have some powers to deem them forgiveavable.

Come 2007, I hope we will continue and become a even greater team! If my boss will decide to let me remain and grow old with them ...

The Management Revolution

Back in the early days, the women gathered fruits and the men hunted meat. Some among them became leaders... saving their strengths to fight only the most ferocious preys or to fend off predators ...serfdom and slavery then made it clear that there were some others who deserved to be much lower than everybody else.

Communism tried to rectify that and leveled the playing fields. It was supposedly a good thing, becos during those times, regardless of how much one has studied, or how skilful or talented one was, everyone was contributing to the economy. Since everyone contributed, everyone should have a equal paycheck. Lawyers, doctors, teachers and pilots would be paid the same way the farmers or the acrobats and the good ole village fool was.

Then came Taylorism and the scientific management was invented. Every motion had to be studied and wasteful steps eliminated to enhance efficiency. Soon, everyone had to be efficient and worked to keep their jobs. To ensure that the more efficient workers would be getting paid more, during that time, out of every 10 who had work to do, there would be 6 working and 4 watching.

Then soon entered the auditors. As the world gets smarter in this information age, management also gets re-educated and enlightened. But soon, out of 10 workers in the company, there are only 4 working, 4 watching and 2 getting pensions.

But during economic recessions, many companies will be trying to tighten their budget with what they consider "fats". They will also probably have to send teams of auditors to check on which part of the "fats" they could take off. In the end, I think we may be left with only 4 working, 2 watching and 4 who will also eventually get laid-offs.

I don't know what else will the govt do with 4 laid-offs and 2 supervisors doing all the paperwork and audits all carried out religiously to make sure that these 4 other miserable working bodies will not be able to have too much of a good life at the expense of the company's accounts.

Some bigger companies have also been praised by the government for rehiring some of these "retrenched executives" and gave them jobs to make sure "the girls at the counters" would remember to smile to the customers.

It would have been a rather bad day today had it not been for an old friend who suddenly showed up to visit me.

Anyway, today ended - 8.15pm! But it isn't unusual. Who cares?

My friends at the department will probably not be able to appreciate how much I've wished for the kind of working hours they are having - 5Days a week.

I think I could give myself a pat on my back for having made life pretty ok for cosy for everyone now, at what otherwise would have been more emergencies at work than accidents on the road. Yet, I can't be happy after realising that there is someone smart alek out there swiping blunt remarks at those of us who who have at least tried to take care of him/her. Really can't fathom these folks. Just like the saying goes, the best politicians are probably found at the coffeeshops.

There is also another the sub-species - those who probably won't care two hoots either, even if the department falls apart while trying to give them some butter on their bread. They will also probably say that this is our job and that's not something that they should be concerned about since there will always be others waiting to prove themselves ANYWAY.

I think they are probably right. That's our sacred duty to try meet the common needs for higher salaries and lesser duties or better machines. But I wonder whether their eyeballs would roll the moment you ask them "how about a little sacrifice".
I don't know who will fit into this category of staff but pls do not blame pple if you have been been making others put in all the sacrifices more for you and you, hardly any for the others. E.g. MCs, urgent leaves and being unreliable co-worker.

Anyway, my thanks to my angel today who took time to drop by just to say "hi".

"The world is a book, and those who do not travel read only one page." (Saint Augustine)

It's been a boring weekend, again.
Just saw the advertisements about Sony Alpha - the 10M DSLR.
Hmm, wonder what the future will be for DSLRs. Wonder why people stopped producing the likes of the F828 which has a built-in 30fps videocam.

Anyway, I think there are more important things that matter in life. Like getting my article completed.
I'm beginning to feel suffocated. Like getting stuck in the middle of so many projects with no outcomes in sight.

Had a good meeting with TCC and GKL on saturday.
We spoke about the future for various groups of radiographers in the department. It was at this point in time that I realised how massive the job is going to get. Not easy going to move issues across the table. Minus the issues about moving people later on. Anyway, I should be more focussed from now on.

Ok, getting bored again.

Street-life in Vietnam

Almost another week is about to pass me by.

Enough said. I am bored. I wish I can be anywhere just at the speed of thought. Then I can be anywhere in 1 day.

Sad huh, having to start working against gravity the moment we are born.

Why don't humans have wings at all?

Rain In Ho Chi Minh City

Today is Singapore's National Day celebrations!
It's been raining on and off these days. Thankfully, the drizzles come and go within 10 mins. I have taken lots of pictures, of bustling life in the city, rain or shine and of children, fruit peddlars, and all sorts of mobile enterprises.

There were many shots that I have missed. A pity! One was of a little girl coming out from her house to burn incense paper by the roadside. (This is month of Hungry Ghost.) I heard from Yen that there were snatch-thieves who were probably hungrier than the real ghosts. The items were stolen before the real ghosts could get at the food/fruits. She said the culprits were "living ghosts".

Anyway, cost of living is still cheaper than in Singapore, although that may be about to change very soon. The lives of the ordinary folks seem to be, in my own categorisation, "happy". Not exactly like our Singaporean kind of happy. There is no rush for PPA rating of 1 - which I think has been the only way for us to separate the diehard workers from the hardtodie workers.

Another day is gone.

Time flies in Saigon

Time really flies and it's end of Sunday.
Literally spent too much time recuperating - slept and slept and slept. Did not realise I was so tired or was it jet-lag? Anyway, feasted my eyes on the motorbikes and scooters in Ho Chi Minh city. Think I will add sound to my X9 when I get back.

Met a guy friend of Yen's cousin's bf. Very nice and humorous guy. I like him. He has also just graduated from his Uni and was offered a job in a bank. He will probably visit me in September-October. He is planning on coming to Singapore to do his MBA. He told me he has just managed to prepare $10k and asked me if it is enough. Sadly I had to tell him, "No." Perhaps the better term would have been "No Way". Then he said he has just gotten a job in the bank. Starting work in September. His boss has sort of agreed to grant sponsorship for his studies in part if his work is good. So I do not know how long will that take. But I am just very impressed by their interests in coming over to Singapore to study. Right now, he is already preparing for GMAT. The other is Uyen, Yen's cousin sister. She has also been saving up and will also probably seek part sponsorship. Her boss (she is working as boutique manager) from this Japanese firm seems ready to sponsor her too. Or has it been all but false promises by foreign bosses trying to squeeze as much as they can from these young and energetic people?

I realise just how small and selfish my world has been. We lead a life in a very "clean" Singapore. Everything is supposed to be transparent and fair.... equality, justice, prosperity. For the moment, life here still seems to run on a different tune. It is like grabbing your bike and go meet a friend for "Ca Phe" or fruit salad. Here, life is simple and everyone works hard. When someone needs help, (not necessarily a girl because it happened to be me one day when I had trouble pushing my bike up the ramp) a neighbour guy would come out from his home and offer help. Twice it happened, and twice I was offered help by neighbours. I think this is becos life is simple. Singapore has become sophisticated. Even if we wish we could help someone, we have to always think about "implications", "transparency", and many many other "what- if-others-also-ask-for- it" etc. I have to think from so many angles when I am in Singapore. One just has to. Anyway, life is really getting complicated.

Having started my clinical stints along the MSR corridor, I think I have got this new zest for life - work-wise. Orthopedic is still my first love - greet customers, position and shoot, then process cassettes and admire the images! Of course there are some variations, plus plus. Don't forget we often have to work FAST AND FURIOUS. Even tho I thought we have already been pretty FAST at our work, and the customers remain FURIOUS. Sometimes, our supervisors also play this role called,"advocacy". So I guess they have every right to throw tantrums sometimes as well. Helped someone with a submission on the RMS. If you know what is RMS, I won't bore you with the details.

Today my senior shared with me. She said that worklife (when you come to work) is like acting and we are actors and actresses. Wear uniforms, and smile. We are paid to do so and not to come to work as if we are at home and throw our tantrums. I guess she is right. I have this psychological contract with my organisation to put on a certain level of acceptable behaviour such that when I represent this organisation well enough, the customer will return (to kick more butts). Somehow, the equation seems to have changed over the years.
On the left hand side, they have added more Auditors who kick butts just as hard as the patients do. Wonder why we have so many types of auditors nowadays. Anyway, I really believe she is right. I must accept the fact that we are paid to get kicked and put on an act. As long as we continue to convince ourselves, "our customers deserve our best"....

Life along the corridor has been fun so far. I particularly enjoy working with the good folks like Ginny, Tom, Suan Hoe, etc... they are the hardworking folks that run up and down the staff corridor. We will still catch a few seconds to joke a little, or laugh a little. Each time, I try to iron out my messed up work process and see which sequence would consume less energy and be more efficient.

My left foot hurts badly. Maybe due to age???? But I feel young! I can still hop! At my section, I feel I can understand what does "PMS" mean. Not that kind.. but "Perpectually Melancholic Syndrome". Just hope nothing like this happens at the workplace. Wish everyone can enjoy worklife just like I do, without a care or worry. This is what I've realised so far, that if life were to be really totally balanced and everything runs like clockwork, then there wouldn't be excitement. An occasional party or dinner outing all of a sudden would be great.

Anyway, Time really passes so quickly! Permanence is only relative...