Loss before it is

March has begun with a very bad start. Worrisome...

I think it is bad for many people that I know. At work, at home, in Business and also in their social network. I really wonder why ... so many bad news. But I do not know how I should move ahead.

For me, there seems to be no other way out. I tend to wait. I wait for the rain to come and sit there like the buffalo for its due. "The creatures of the earth look to Thee for their meat." The path is narrow and the forest thickens as I step deeper and deeper into it. Night is approaching. The light is fading out, it seems. Now someone gave me 2 options. Though I see light at each end of the path, its the thickening vegetation that worries me. I have slowed down a lot already. Now that we have reached a fork junction, someone again asked me to make my choice - but little do they know, they had given me 2 out of 3 options. By choosing my own options, perhaps this might have been an entirely different forest altogether. Anyway ... I sworn myself to secrecy. I shall not say. Everything in life is but an imagery. Nothing is permanent. Nothing is real, but not all things are fake. It is just all humans-do-whatt-humans-do on the stage set up by God, perhaps directed by fellow humans. And God would pick up the best ones that He wants to keep. What shall I do? I will do what the road ahead asks of me.

If you ask me how I do it, I can only tell you that it could be easier if I just walk blindfolded. Chrisians call it blindfaith. Do you know why a bird stays still after a while? I know. I've seen it there. The cage was big and after a while, it grew tired. It can go as it pleases yet it can't go as it pleases. I can feel its weariness, and the energy rapidly dissipating everytime it flaps it wings. It's a real big world we are all sitting trapped in.

I see old people walking down the streets. I see others playing chess. I also see yet others splurging whatever remains in their pockets. Many should have seen what I saw. They had been there. Now they stayed. Soon, I will be playing chess like everyone else and waiting for my turn. Meanwhile, I have to move on ... nudged on. And along this path ... Hope it leads to freedom and I'd have lived another day. Thank God.